year of the wood snake

Two thousand and twenty-five;
the year of the wood snake.
Typically I am not one to follow
the Chinese zodiac,
but this year was different.

In two thousand and twenty-five,
the year of the wood snake,
I gave birth to my son.
I became a mother.
My soul knew it was time to shed.
My body broke open
at the birth canal
before my skin split at my crown
and I turned inside-out
to shed my old layers of skin,
my old layers
of being,
of identity,
of purpose and perspective,
of capacity to feel and fear and love.

Despite a significant phobia of snakes
I now deeply resonate with this creature
and the transformative processes
it undergoes,
necessary for its survival.

Becoming a mother has forced me
to shed layers of old skin
I had become so unconsciously accustomed to
that to see them discarded beside me
shocked me more
than the shedding itself.

I am forever changed
and must commit to continual shedding
to be the best mother
and person
I can be.

Leaves remaining

Leaves remaining from last year,
maybe longer,
collect and accumulate in a pile
littering the ground with browns and dull greys.
How many layers are there?
All I see are the new ones on top,
hiding the older ones underneath
likely in varying stages of decomposition.

There they lie.
Rustling ever so slightly in the breeze
are the light, new ones,
settling motionless, heavy with age and water
are the the old ones,
the foundation.

Up through the middle though
lives a tree
growing new bright and green leaves
and blossoms of dark fuschia and cotton white.
So odd it seems
how life can flourish from the base
of death, of decay,
but my eyes do not deceive me.

Perhaps, the leaves offer comfort.
Perhaps, the leaves provide warmth.
Perhaps, the leaves supply nourishment.
But perhaps, the leaves are a hindrance,
keeping the tree in the past,
preventing growth.

Despite the offered comfort,
go the leaves must.
I gathered mine,
will keep gathering as new ones fall,
growing through and beyond
the past.