writing saved their life

I read books written by other people
(obviously)
and when they say
that writing saved their life
I feel dejected
because I want to say the same
but don’t feel like I can.

I want to be ‘like them’
but tell myself I’m not
because I am nobody
but a small measly voice
whispering into the abyss,
the ever-growing noise in the vastness
swallowing my words.

Moments later
I walk from the living room
to my bedroom
and gaze upon the stacks of notebooks
in the corner.
I flip through the ink-covered pages,
including in the book used today.

Perhaps my perception has been flawed.
Perhaps my life, too,
has been saved
and is being saved
by writing.

my mind in poem bedlam

I started to share
all my thoughts with the world,
but have been silent of late
with my brow slightly furrowed.

For although silent online,
I have been anything but.
Filling pages and pages
with words, commas and dots.

I have been writing and writing,
words pouring from my heart.
Running out ink from my pen
on topics hopeful and dark.

But although all my writing
has filled over a book,
flipping through the pages
makes me take away a look.

Some I want to keep private,
so not to cause concern.
Others I am proud to share,
for their publicity, I yearn.

There are too many to choose from
and all good in my mind,
so I elect to post none
and another writing book find.

Is this choice right? Maybe not,
but still writing I am.
Let the words fall where they may,
my mind in poem bedlam.