Leaves remaining

Leaves remaining from last year,
maybe longer,
collect and accumulate in a pile
littering the ground with browns and dull greys.
How many layers are there?
All I see are the new ones on top,
hiding the older ones underneath
likely in varying stages of decomposition.

There they lie.
Rustling ever so slightly in the breeze
are the light, new ones,
settling motionless, heavy with age and water
are the the old ones,
the foundation.

Up through the middle though
lives a tree
growing new bright and green leaves
and blossoms of dark fuschia and cotton white.
So odd it seems
how life can flourish from the base
of death, of decay,
but my eyes do not deceive me.

Perhaps, the leaves offer comfort.
Perhaps, the leaves provide warmth.
Perhaps, the leaves supply nourishment.
But perhaps, the leaves are a hindrance,
keeping the tree in the past,
preventing growth.

Despite the offered comfort,
go the leaves must.
I gathered mine,
will keep gathering as new ones fall,
growing through and beyond
the past.

Caught in a trance

Caught in a trance,
hands on the steering wheel
eyes on the road
mind lost in the music.

Lost in the bass
thundering through my static muscles,
lost in the guitar
amplifying my pulsating blood,
lost in the lyrics
shattering and healing my heart at once.

Turn it up loud
so my ears cannot hear my mind
attempting fantasy.

Singing, mimicking,
would be a disservice now.

So here I sit, caught in a trance
seemingly motionless, but hosting a frenzy
on the inside.
Music surges through me
as I open wide the gate
and leaves me with nothing more
than a growing smile on my lips
and radiating calm.

early morning glow

Strange, how
the early morning glow and warmth
rests upon my eyes in a new way,
like I have never before sat in the kitchen
eating breakfast before work
and looked outside to the world waking up.

It must have happened before,
years before,
and days too many to count.

How unfortunate
to think of those mornings unappreciated,
showing up to start anew
yet passing by my clouded eyes,
gone.

frustrations

I am mindful and present
with my frustrations,
acknowledging them
giving them power, more than they deserve.

Holding frustrations over situations beyond my control
weighs me down,
noticeably so.

Give them away
so I can give more of myself to you.
Give, in hopes that you
will give too.

strength to keep swinging

It seems easy to tell
by looking from a distance
those who live their true selves
and those who try fitting in the mold.

Those who carve their own path, through the woods,
and those who choose the one already paved.

My true self
has an axe over her shoulder
ready to create the way only meant for her
but I wonder
if the world also sees the axe shining
like I do, heavy in my hands
and my muscles quivering,
searching for strength to keep swinging.

Strings in the sky

Haphazard strings
clumped together and strewn apart
dance across the setting sun,
with the wind
drawing closer and louder.

Coordinated strings
shaped to form a ‘V’,
multiple ‘V’s’ actually, size
and deepness ranging.

Fragmented strings
broken into beads along the thread
each a part of the whole,
beating wings
singing.

As the individual beads become clear
they blend,
mutating once more
into a cluster of thread,
dancing away
across the sky.