I live my life through the words I write
If you asked me where the last weeks have gone
it would take me a while
to remember, and answer.
Flying in the spaces
between the lines on the to-do list
to get there faster.
Planning for the future
making the most of time,
to stay in the present moment
will put me behind.
Today, the rush slows down
I can enjoy stillness for moments more
though it feels foreign to me now.
To stay on the surface is easy.
To find the still waters beneath;
beautifully difficult.
Give my mind a bread crumb
immediately
it wants the entire loaf.
What next thing should we do?
How will each detail look?
What will the 15th step be?
One flake of snow
growing into a snowman
in less than a minute.
For goodness sake, just slow down.
Stay here, in this moment,
without worrying and planning for a future
that might not happen.
Appreciate the here and now
without wanting to become bigger.
One bread crumb,
one snowflake,
one at a time.
Forced to take a step back,
to slow down, slow way down.
My body has made it clear
she cannot keep up any longer.
I remember a time where I could do all this and more
but times have changed.
My body has changed. I have changed.
Tending to her injuries,
reinforcing the structural integrity,
I whisper apologies
and promises to do better, to be better.
Change has forced itself upon me
and I must accept it.
Quiet out there,
matched by the quiet in here.
Cold and snow pushing life to slow down
so we do,
inside, staying close and warm
and quiet.
She is mourning,
her body changing from fire to snow,
wind to desert to floods.
Be gentle now.
Gentle and quiet.
We can see
hundreds of different sunsets
all in one night,
a kaleidoscope of colors,
where to look away even for a minute
and look back again,
decorates our eyes with a brand new view,
and we wonder,
at how fast change happens.
We can see this,
marvel at and treasure
our lives, and how fast change happens,
with this same sense of wonder
if we choose.
Pull me back from the routine of hustle,
racing against time to optimize productivity,
working fast and diligent
because I am the only one.
Pull me back from the hustle,
make me slow down enough
to have a conversation of leisure
with you.
Remind me of other worthy goals
besides the numbers and dates.
Pull me back to myself
like only you can.
Dawning Words 