What to make of this

Days, evenings,
once demanding planning
preparation and time away
now look at me with blank stares
seeking purpose, fulfillment.

What to make of this newfound time,
this gift, this opportunity.

What to make of my racing mind
battling unease
grasping for structure
where there is none.

each stone tossed in

Rising up from the inner depths of me
out into clear view,
reflections and thoughts I knew existed
but of only minimal understanding.

You know the right questions
to pull them forward
and persuade me to spend more time
trying to understand
and appreciate.

Though I am a small pond
with gentle flow from the warm breeze,
each stone tossed in
stirs never-ending ripples
until I am nothing
but an ocean, turbulent with waves,
everywhere.